life's challenges strike again

I just got some disenchanting news that may or may not affect me personally.

The CEO of our long-struggling company has decided to take a position with one of our major investors and step down as CEO of this organization. Strangely, he will continue to office in our office space and be an advisor on our behalf to the board regarding decisions. So he is basically keeping his finger in the pie while distancing himself on paper. This could potentially be a good thing or it could once again spell disaster. Personal problem being of course that my bread-winning job situation is once again possibly in jeopardy.

Recently, our company has been making strides in a positive direction in getting recapitalized in order to free up some money in order to make some money, but I am once again feeling the possible death knoll at the door. This exec that is choosing to leave is one of the few that I respected in the upper eschelons (of course my boss and his boss are not even counted because why would I work for them if it wasn't good on some level - I like my boss's laid-back style, and his boss is a good boss even if he has some personal issues I don't agree with.) We have not gotten raises or bonuses which are almost expected in this industry, and they cut our inflated transportation allowance and our 401K match, but they have recently re-instated the 401K match to half of its former self (which is less than the 10% match that I was getting previously - but that is almost unheard of). Granted, I am not complaining - thankfully I have a very nice benfits package, but it used to be nicer is all...

This is so frustrating ! But in some ways I feel like I am stuck. Who is gonna want to hire someone for 6 months and then wait another 3 for me to come back? And to top it off, I am terrible at interviewing, no matter what steps I take to combat it - role play, etc, I just come off nervous and stiff and not very likeable.

I am really striving to see the positive side right now, so any comments would be appreciated

Blah blah blah - kick - off?

Just felt a definate kick from the one I haven't been feeling so much from before. (10:43 AM)

Been feeling pretty blah the last few days and woke up in the middle of the night shivering again last night. Today it has been really hard to get moving, and yesterday felt pretty crappy most of the afternoon.

Made sheppard's pie last night - cheated on the mashed potatoes and used instant, minus the milk. Yael helped add the "spices" I was too lazy to cut up garlic so I used garlic powder and just for kicks I used Ms Dash to liven up the meat. Then I added a can of tomatoes that had peppers in it - what was I thinking. I couldn't de-spicify that and Yoni wsa NOT pleased.
Tonight he is getting a meal that includes brocolli and corn since he specifically asked for those veggies to be added last night, but it wasn't in my veggie profile for the evening - I wanted peas and carrots in my meat pie. And I made the cardinal sin of adding onions - which he claimed were what made it spicy - and I went with that - go ahead and blame the blanched onions for everything you don't like, kid!

This meal of course was not finished until the late hour of 8:45 since I expected Eran to go to the gym at 9:00. He didn't end up going, but I didn't get started on "dinner" until after 8:00 because the kids had eaten already and it was what I had been planning to make (in my head) for 2 weeks. Too bad it came out spicy - Eran and I liked it :) Also, the fact that Eran closed the store and I worked late and then had to go to a baseball meeting at the JCC - more late night fun. The upside is that I did manange to move Yoni to a team where at least he will know some of the kids. The team I requested to be on was PACKED to the gills with lots of familiar faces and I was irritated that I didn't get to put him on that team despite the fact that I requested it before the reg deadline was over.

Now, I am planning a meaty superbowl feast since I have already ordered a kosher deli lunch box special to be delivered that morning. Maybe I'll go with pigs in a blanket, the kids love 'em! And of course the requisite chips and salsa along with pretzels and potato chips. Maybe also a version of 7-layer dip with no cheese addded...And of course there's always potato or mushroom or beef bureakas with humus and techina and pickles and boiled eggs. Maybe I'll do deviled eggs and stuff them with hummus??? Or an egg salad to complement the deli???
Any other menu suggestions?
Plus, I'm not having many guests if at all - although all who show up are welcome!